Intentional 2021
  1. I think we can all agree it didn’t turn out the way we had planned it to a year ago. Our 2020 started out right on track but quickly derailed like everyone else’s. We moved into our new home. We went to The Grove Park Inn for a long, family weekend. I had a hysterectomy. Then right at two weeks post-surgery, everything shut down. It was Friday, March 13 and my son had a baseball game and when we drove into our driveway that evening we didn’t leave again for a long time.

 

I did a lot of reflection throughout 2020. I was able to recognize who I missed. And who I didn’t. What I missed. And what I didn’t. What I enjoyed. And what I didn’t. And what I realized was that I wasn’t fulfilling my purpose. I had spent decades wasting time. My time was occupied fulfilling the expectations of others; their purpose. I had created side goals in an effort to find purpose because my head and heart were wandering. Don’t get me wrong, I still had some wonderful times with my family, traveling, and things like that but it was the bulk of my day that was unfulfilling. Then the trauma of 2017 happened followed by two hard years of enduring the hurt of betrayal and slander.

 

I had to search my heart repeatedly because all I kept asking was “why? Why was this happening? How could anything good come from it?” But what I have realized is that we have to ask ourselves what is the blessing in this hardship? What is the lesson? It’s when we find the blessing and the lesson that we begin to steer towards our purpose. And when we begin to fulfill our purpose, we become a blessing to others.

 

The quiet of 2020 left me with a lot of time to think about my purpose. I quickly saw that I had been chasing goals that I didn’t care about; I was still in the rut of spending the bulk of my time unfulfilled. When life changes so abruptly, as it did in 2020, you realize how precious time is. Every single day. And you realize that you don’t want to waste any more time not being fulfilled and not discovering and living your purpose.

 

There is an old saying that if it is worth doing, it is worth doing right. I could not agree more. I have made a point to be intentional about everything I do. For example, cooking supper? I am going to make it a wonderful meal and I am going to set the table and my husband, son, and I are going to talk about our day and we are going to linger in conversation. Intentional time. Fulfilled. If we do all the little things with intention, they become the big things. They fulfill us and guide us towards more purpose in our lives.

 

I have discovered a new me in this 43 year old body. I am the most joyful and happy that I have ever been in my life. I want to be my best self at all times. Making every moment count. I do not have any New Year’s resolutions so to speak, just the commitment to be intentional. Intentional in everything I do. The joy is in the journey and our journey becomes our story. And I am going to make my story one that is filled with intention and purpose.


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Patricia Davis

Patricia Davis

Loved your blog! Couldn’t agree with you more! Wow! You are 43 and in your prime! Before the beginning of the world God had planned to make us His through His Son. He had planned to make us his children through Jesus Christ. We are his workmanship created By him to do good works would He planned for us to do before the world began. You are beautiful and very talented ! May God bless you richly with his boundless love in 2021! When we are fulfilling His purpose we will be in perfect peace , joy, and love! His approval is all that matters! He is our Father who created us to love Him !

Kristy Harvey

Kristy Harvey

Love this, Booth! Thanks for sharing and can’t wait for lots of fun memories in 2021! xoxo Kristy

Jennifer

Jennifer

Love this! I have never been a resolutions person, I choose to set goals. Just that wording change seems to make it more attainable and lasting. As I have been going through this bizarre year, I have been trying to be more “intentional” and it has made a huge difference. That is the top goal for 2021. Be more intentional. If I can continue to be more intentional my other goals should be easier to accomplish.

I know our situations are quite different yet we all find ourselves at one time or another asking Why? When my daughter was diagnosed with cancer in 2014, we both repeatedly asked why. Why is this happening and why her (for her it was why me)? After many nights of crying and crying out to God, we both change “why” to “why not”. God was using her cancer to change us: me, her, our family. It was a very difficult journey. In 2018, my daughter faced another medical crisis of uncertainty. During this time, we also lost my father. Two months after his death (another why and why him), her medical situation became dire and she ended up having 2 brain surgeries within72 hours with the second being extremely emergent. Again, WHY WHY WHY? In the quiet, we reasked why not. Our journeys have not only taught us how indeed strong we are, who we can count on (family and friends alike), who we can trust, and that God is in control and everything that happens is his plan. Knowing all of this has helped us get through 2020. As awful as 2020 has been, I thank God every day for the family and friends I do have and that my daughter is healthy. In January, she was deemed “cured” of cancer as she is 5 years out. This January 21 will be 6 years of remission. God is good, especially when we ask “why not”.

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